If Only

If Only 

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 8th January 2014, Wednesday, 2:15 a.m.-2:25 a.m., In my rented room missing honey azizam Ali Vafaei Zadeh so much in my heart and mind - if only he knows 

My life of spots,

I miss you lots;

Should I continue the polka dots,

Hold on until each rots,

Or should I just change the wind,

Carry my grin;

I don't want to win,

May it be a bliss twin,

When I look on my right,

I see you by my side;

Why can't we make it tonight?

Until morning bright,

Running my fingers,

Till your face get wrinkles;

Tickle you to giggles,

We overcome all fakers,

Oh, baby, why can't we?

Don't you love and miss me? 

You're the only that I need,

Across time-across greed,

I want you by my side,

Take me for a ride;

I won't be shy,

I won't cry.