Alonity

Alonity: Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 1st February 2014, Saturday, laying on my mattress in my room in BSD home, KL, 11:00 a.m.-11:12 a.m.

Alonity,
It's a word from alone and unity;
When both combine in entity,
That's how we form a community,
Last night I was on martini,
Ventured even to Santorini;
Thought I have met the man,
He seemed interested in me,
I just could imagine,
Him inside me;
Walking the whole journey,
Until we become old,
Having kids of own,
From houses bought to sold;
I thought he could find me,
I thought he could ask me,
Bring me out of here,
I follow you and your beer;
Kissing you so near,
Pink me up and I'll cheer,
No, you won't call me dear,
Time just ticking and switching gear;
You won't say and I won't hear,
You'll fly soon and I'm left here still.

I Dreamt a Dream

I Dreamt a Dream

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 13th January 2014, Monday, 8:27 a.m.-8:55 a.m., laying on my mattress in my rented room, K.L. and done checking at 8:59 a.m.

I awoke with tears in my dream,

Let me towards it seam;

I know it has meaning,

I shall record only the last seen,

Let me recall scene by scene,

It is not easy;

Most I forgot already,

But hey, there was Dr. Danny,

Talking to me like I was guilty,

Of doing the kissing and everything;

He even passed me a cracker thing,

With a message on it,

This nightmare started,

After I entered;

The Scholar Base as a mentor,

I was teaching singing,

We even did the "London Bridge",

Obviously God is telling me;

Of not going back to history,

I told Dr. Danny that finding jobs,

It was uneasy,

Then, we ended up in his office;

After some two staffs greetings,

He said that they were with him,

I shouldn't be worried,

He said there was an evidence;

If I'm not mistaken, a picture,

It was a 1980 taken,

Oh, please, I wasn't even present,

I was born in 1987;

He forwarded one of his watches,

It was so clear and mechanical,

How I cried that I couldn't accept,

Rejecting even the Hello Kitty cat;

But I still remember the belt,

So unique, that was what I felt,

I shall remember this brilliant idea,

It could be something for my year;

Maybe there are people wanna hear,

How could I end up accused?

Ah, must be my past bf issue,

He left me with a recent clue;

His gf now tasted his bird and glue,

No, this can't be making me blue,

Maybe just thinking about it,

Why am I thinking in the first place?

I don't know anything about her,

But she must be real open minded,

Sex before marriage,

I admit I was seduced by many men;

One even fantasized to the max,

I hope I didn't agree to any man,

I'm still a virgin, that's what I am,

I can't wait for a new man;

A Westerner, that's what I meant,

I want a mixed marriage,

It will never be the same,

I need to forget any other image;

The unhappy ones, please erase,

Happiness will come without chase.

Another History

Another History

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 8th January 2014, Wednesday, 5:40 p.m.-5:57 p.m., in the living room of rented house, letting go Ali Vafaei Zadeh as my former lover (first serious relationship for 5 months and recently/lately he called me as his best friend and I accept him as my best friend -both of us no longer keep in touch with Dawood Afkhami-, I apologize, I thank you, I wonder why, I wonder why)

I thank God for this evening,

He's ever lovely and considerate;

He shows me the grand opening,

He knows that I can really take,

Ever since early in the morning,

A wish "goodnight" by me made;

He replied and more words on plate,

Talked about sex and then, relate,

Finally, I realized he found a mate,

Another history, I closed the gate;

No more speaking on love and fate,

No more such missing him rate,

I shall allow myself to resuscitate,

More room to love than to hate;

Go on meeting new faces and date,

I'm ready and it's never too late,

A new story shall I start to create,

Lord, please heal me off heartbreak;

In life, just accelerate, don't brake,

I need to learn a cake recipe to bake.

Sekiranya Kau Bulan, Ku Siapa?

Sekiranya Kau Bulan, Ku Siapa?

Ilham asli oleh Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 8 Januari 2014, Rabu, 11:13 pagi-11:27 pagi, Di dalam bilik sewa, Kuala Lumpur, Terkenangkan cinta dulu yang masih membara sehingga kini - seandainya dia tahu, AVZ, SLW mencintai dan merindui mu 

Barangkali ku berfikir,

Mungkin dari zahir;

Mungkin dari batin,

Andai kata ku memihak ranting,

Apakah akar mula menengking?

Betapa hati ku sakit;

Hari demi hari pulih jua sikit,

Ku berjalan ada juga berakit,

Cuma ada kala hilang seringgit,

Usah gentar kehidupan menggigit;

Kalau mu jatuh kembalilah bangkit,

Tak perlu nak selalu cantik-cantik,

Hati lihat luar hanyalah sedikit,

Tidak juga hari-hari ku bertapa;

Tidak juga selalu minum air kelapa,

Namun hati ku mencari serupa,

Sekiranya kau bulan, ku siapa? 

Ku harap cinta bukan sebelah mata;

Jangan disangka ku hawa rata,

Ku hanya bijak berkata-kata,

Ku perlukan mu beraksi bercerita.

If Only

If Only 

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 8th January 2014, Wednesday, 2:15 a.m.-2:25 a.m., In my rented room missing honey azizam Ali Vafaei Zadeh so much in my heart and mind - if only he knows 

My life of spots,

I miss you lots;

Should I continue the polka dots,

Hold on until each rots,

Or should I just change the wind,

Carry my grin;

I don't want to win,

May it be a bliss twin,

When I look on my right,

I see you by my side;

Why can't we make it tonight?

Until morning bright,

Running my fingers,

Till your face get wrinkles;

Tickle you to giggles,

We overcome all fakers,

Oh, baby, why can't we?

Don't you love and miss me? 

You're the only that I need,

Across time-across greed,

I want you by my side,

Take me for a ride;

I won't be shy,

I won't cry.