That I Can't Sleep

That I Can't Sleep
Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 1st September 2014, Monday, 1:23 a.m.-2:34 a.m., in my cousin's room just after a slow and warm shower

Last night was another dream,
It was of wood, wind, and beam;
Ignored the walls,
There were we,
Just beside the stream,
The lights were practically dim;
Waitresses to serve and to deem,
A restaurant of fruit and royalty,
So close to me as it was British,
I would fail if it was Irish;
Yet I was too tired to even eat,
I was glad we shared and finished it,
It was a great chat,
With too many similarities indeed;
It was hard for me to express reality,
Whatever the universe hinted me,
There were topics related to it,
He was even more talkative than me;
All I could do was to stare at him,
Looking at his beautiful eyes,
The moment he smiled,
I could just show fragile;
Why should I lie?
That was what I felt inside,
I've lost in his sight,
I'm lost in his sight;
In between the music and light,
Both didn't compromise,
How are you there on the other side?
Can you sleep tonight?
That cheek kiss was my resign,
That hug to you was my benign,
I had given it all up last night,
Acceptance of what's on your mind;
You're far too kind,
You bought what I wouldn't buy,
Especially not for me,
My brand knowledge isn't deep;
Even for a drink I'd think twice to sip,
Not worth it for hard earned money,
Nevertheless I need to enjoy it,
Life won't wait, will it?
I only purchased things necessary,
Thank you for making me smile,
Thank you for making me laugh,
Everything was so worthwhile;
Last night was a "The End" tile,
No more memories a pile a pile,
Your treat I took it like I was a child,
It would only be once in your file;
A promise I made of my own missile,
I might suffer but it wasn't your mile,
I apologized but there was no why,
At least I had given it a try;
That was all the bullet that I applied,
Shooting myself and remaining tight,
Darling Angel is now taking flight,
A free bird as I switched off the light;
You won't hear from me,
That's how things should be,
We never encountered calling,
Good enough for our bodies;
Take care there and live healthy,
I'm now turning sleepy,
I really have to pen off this,
Doing what my body is requesting;
Yesterday was a nonstop walking,
I must complete first this poetry,
Last night was the end of beginning,
We are from two worlds realistically;
Can no longer go on like this,
Underwent all like in a fantasy,
Thank you for accepting me,
It's my heart now that can't sleep;
I shall breathe the breeze in easy,
So that without you it'll still be cosy.

My Guardian Angel

My Guardian Angel
Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 25th August 2014, Monday, 9:58 a.m.-10:27 a.m., in my cousin's room

You were there,
You were there;
All along,
And that could never go wrong.

Last night,
A friend of mine;
Unwind time,
The past is also life,
What we had inside,
Our names thus collide;
Yours that I abide,
More than an apple to the eye,
I keep it by my side,
I was almost blind;
I didn't remember much of that time,
It was you that showed up in white,
She said that you weren't with a tie,
She was certainly right;
How did I miss that sight?
I was black and you white that night.

What is reality playing?
Scene after scene after scene?
What is God telling?
Story after story after story?

A wiseman yesterday said to me,
"It's never your timing,"
We are so close to him,
What does this bond clearly mean?

Come to think of it,
Bit by bit;
Wherever of my being,
Any place just name it,
As common as that can be,
We never missed to see;
A Guardian Angel to be,
And today you're One to me.

No matter how far and how slow,
We still met and just gave it a go;
Ignoring the gist of "I don't know,"
Facing fear and believing tomorrow,
We have felt the warmth and cold,
In front of you I was so bold;
The firmness and security you hold,
We let nature flow and freely spoke.

We never ran out of topics,
The chemistry instantly clicks;
Ended with touches of grins,
Started with what we call bliss.

You were there,
You were there;
All along,
And that could never go wrong.

Everything's Broken

Everything's Broken
Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 24th August 2014, 12:26 a.m.-1:15 a.m., in my cousin's room and about to go to bed after work from 11:30 a.m.

It was your dream,
You came to me;
Like a stream,
Clear in beam,
The pairing,
The intimacy;
The setting,
The fantasy.

The high ceiling,
The pure bedding;
The spacious building,
The sensual feeling,
The souls kissing,
The lips syncing;
The back adoring,
The reality is nothing.

As beautiful as everything was,
The fact that it has passed;
Temporary and it's gone to rust,
The truth that lust won't last,
It all happened too fast,
I felt that I was just a cast;
My part has now turned to dust,
It's so easy for you to just adjust,
No longer as tasty as a pizza's crust,
Sweet to bitter in a manner vast;
If only there's a song for both hearts,
A hymn, a melody, or fate guards,
It's always been chasing cars,
It's always been a pause and laughs;
It's always been applause and ups,
A touch, a smile, and lots of hugs.

How different are you?
Were you being true?
Why do I still feel blue?
Yes, you told me through,
No way there'll be a glue,
It's too loose and to lose;
I didn't compete yet I lose,
I didn't see it coming,
I wasn't prepared of winning,
There wasn't any victory;
We weren't even battling,
It was just mere spontaneity,
A mixture of love and anxiety,
Being in a dogmatic society;
Such situation condemned to feet,
What was with the first time meet?

I'm too tired to count,
Even if I call you aloud;
Your ears are too proud,
Can't hear my tiny sound,
You've her all around,
Please forget my pound;
We went out of bound,
The time ticked its round,
Could this be lost and found?
Electrifying chemistry all around?
The owner played well in the town,
It's nice looking high but all to down.

The attracting,
The affecting;
The reasoning,
The caring,
The suffering,
The similarity;
The wondering,
The worrying,
The rushing,
The silencing;
The vacancy,
The being,
This short story,
This sort of longing;
It was your dream,
You came to me.

May I Ask You This?

May I Ask You This?
Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 3rd August 2014, Sunday, 12:47 p.m.-13:30 p.m., in MRT heading toward Dhoby Ghout to be exchanged toward Harbourfront for work, just a sudden turmoil in mind

Dear Roger, may I ask you this?
Will you hold my hand and give me bliss?
Why did you come back to me?
Could it be just temporary?
You said that you miss me,
And you're back for love and friendship;
Did you tell the same to others?
Am I just one of your partners?
Let me tell you that I'm not a material,
I'm also not a collection;
Please don't take me as an edition,
I'm a human with more than an emotion and affection,
Let the past 4 months go to Heaven,
Do you want to start all over?
I've forgotten the sober,
Come to think of it I do miss our special moment,
I even thought of spending time with you,
I started learning on making cheese fondue;
But it seems like everything's still new,
Now you're telling me you'll have a move view,
Closer to me though I've no curfew,
Should I meet up with you?
Texts only don't mean your words are true,
You could've called and given me a better clue,
No, we can't if you're just playing through,
Do you see the Sun, Stars, and Sky, when I'm with you?
Because if you only want to make love,
I'm sorry that you've found the wrong girl.