Worlds Apart? No.

Worlds Apart? No.:

4^th month poem’s idea title: 4^th October 2012 (7:46 p.m.)

Start: 10^th October 2012 (6:57 p.m.-8:06 p.m.)

A warm love dedication to علی عزیزم

Written originally by Jenni

سلام عزيزم,

خوبی?

من خوب نیستم,

My lion, deer is unhappy.

I don’t know where to start,

Or rather how to start;

Give me some time to write,

Just now I’ve already cried.

I always get to see the airplane,

Each time I always call upon you;

I’d walk behind it wishing it’ll bring me to another place,

The place, where I could start anew.

Growing up isn’t easy,

As I entered the society;

Food isn’t as tasty but spicy,

I began to forget the true meaning of the filial piety.

It’s okay if my employer doesn’t respect me,

I shake silently;

Nodding and apologizing,

That’s my routine with stairs running.

Honey,

We haven’t talked for so long;

I’m sorry for my wrong,

Your space and time are for your family.

Tears, please stay,

Heart, please pray;

Face, please be gay,

Oh no, it’s a rainy day.

I wish to find back my childhood girl,

The one, who is as fair as pearl;

She is… where?

Airplane, please take me there.

Maybe I should work with flowers and animals instead,

Through rain and shine;

They remain lovely, gentle, and kind,

They don’t have questions in each head.

Joyful Jennifer,

The girl of laughter;

The girl of smile sweeter,

Why do I make myself suffer?

How do I make myself better?

What do I fear?

Why do I fear?

Do people enjoy making money?

Money isn’t my priority;

I’m not enjoying my salary,

I save and spend necessarily.

This life is full of materials,

Almost like television serials;

Mountains of deals during sales,

Environment saving, each fails.

I want a change,

I’m myself to blame;

I need a new range,

I don’t want any fame.

25 years of me,

Seeing people around me;

Some sad, some happy,

Some just shabby.

I’m weak,

I’m lonely;

My energy,

I seek.

My body,

My temple;

My lady,

My battle.

A lost of 9-11 kg,

A change of closet and lingerie;

Now I’m a 32C or D,

I was told not to go thinner or else no more size for me.

Listening to the radio,

Reading novel after novel;

Both do carry me away,

Drifting into the sea and bay.

I miss my younger self,

Confident and resilient;

Now I wish to be blind and deaf,

I’m only a mortal and not permanent.

God will take me someday,

Forever is nothing;

Nothing is forever,

My life I lay,

My sins I condemn and repent.

My dream,

Contributing to society;

I write and not build a beam,

My imaginary is my cruelty.

I’ve been too lengthy,

I’ve to face guilt and reality;

I want you to be healthy,

You’re my everything, my possibility, and desirability.

Continued: 11^th October 2012 (7:30 a.m.-7:51 a.m.)

I’m currently reading “Septembers of Shiraz”,

Written by Dalia Sofer;

If only I’m as talented as Jason Mraz,

A Film Novelist, Jennifer.

Are we worlds apart?

نه عزیزم;

You’re always in my heart,

I’ll wait for you to say, “.من برگشتم”

I need to prepare for work again,

I shall move into the International House;

No pain no gain,

Before April big rat will be closer to small mouse.

Jia Min will be helping me,

Applying a room under her name;

I’ll do the payment monthly,

She’s with her Uncle and family once she came.

How are you there?

Do I make you happy?

Let’s care and share,

From the brain to the heart to the tummy.

I miss you,

I want and need you;

I’ve been waiting for you for so long,

Being in love trains one to be strong.

Take good care,

My dearest darling baby;

A great person like you is rare,

Hugs and kisses from me, your baby.

Continued: 11^th October 2012 (7:15 p.m.-7:29 p.m.)

I miss being solely a full-time student,

My face is really that evident;

Wearing casual smartly with plain confident,

Isn’t that being a Univ. resident?

I was walking in campus,

Today during working hours;

Nature heals me,

I must remember, who I am inside me.

I may quit this job,

But it may not happen after all;

I’ll stand firm and not sob,

I need my life to roll like a ball.

Positivity,

I’ve found it;

I’m healing,

I’m happy.

Time will pass,

Tears will dry;

Things won’t last,

Feelings don’t hide.

Deer misses lion so much,

Thank you for letting me greet your family;

May all be healthy, merry, and happy,

From Malaysia, hugs and kisses of muacks and much.

Continued: 12^th October 2012 (12:37 a.m.-12:41 a.m.)

, jan- عزیزم علی

You’re my happiness;

You’re my only one,

I’ll give you what you deserve.

Remember we talked about outing?

Traveling and visiting places?

For you I’ll be waiting,

I’m ready to be with you through all phases.

End [Proofreading and editing]: 12^th October 2012 (11:17 p.m.)