Self-Forgiving and Self-Love

Self-Forgiving and Self-Love: Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 18th March 2013, Monday, 11:56 a.m.-12:26 p.m., In my own room at home 

Today I'm awakened,

Thank God;

Today I've desired,

Forgive me, Lord,

Life is a cycle,

A miracle;

I've learnt,

Whenever broken,

No matter how taken,

We're forgiven;

Though your heart is stolen,

Treat it as a token,

Don't be shaken,

Love is a wonder;

Look forward,

Smile toward,

Live longer,

Improve behavior;

Don't have to suffer,

Be a good eater,

You're your own prisoner,

That you've to conquer;

The past won't last,

Self-forgiving with class,

Erase negative lust,

Observe with just;

Mistakes either didn't or did,

Replace them now with any good deed,

Be confident and believe,

See yourself from the sea;

Trust the moon, the star, the sun, the sky above,

Good things happen as you first self-love. 

Give yourself a chance to "Feel Again": 

Blessed be the Day the Lord Hath Made

Blessed be the Day the Lord Hath Made: Written Originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 18th March 2013, Monday, 9:41 a.m.-10:00 a.m., Edited on 5:39 p.m., Same date and day, In my own room at home 

Blessed be the day the Lord hath made,
A day for all available faces to relate;
Perhaps I just need to rely on fate,
And don't set my own date,
Watch whatever I ate,
Even as searching mate;
Do I say search or wait?
Let it be left unsaid,
I'm not a simple bait,
Some fish attempt I'd hesitate;
May the one loves me and not compensate,
I'll give my love more than hate,
I'll open my gate not my cave,
To the only should there could be marriage;
If not, I'd rather die alone at old age,
If God planned it earlier for me I can manage,
This world isn't for me to long-term stay,
I thank the Lord for showing me the way;
Both the shine and the decay,
I learn more and more on repay,
Give back more than just say,
Do my best as my being may;
I only have a temple to lay,
Forgive and punish me all day,
I hope everything is and will be okay,
I hope to stand at the ocean bay;
And under the waterfall all day,
I'm nothing and a tourist,
If you found me under a tree,
God may have a purpose on this;
Pray for flashbacks of memories bliss,
And we may end up with a divine kiss.

A song dedication to you: 

Losing Faith in Humanity

Losing Faith in Humanity: Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, In my room at home, 7:02 p.m.-7:21 p.m., 16th March 2013, Saturday, Edited at 3:08 p.m.-3:17 p.m., 17th March 2013, Sunday, Same old room at home 

The moment I open my eyes,
There the truth lies;
It is as if someone dies,
Even attracted the flies,
I only say what people want to hear,
I only celebrate what people want to cheer;
Oh, Lord, how about my ear?
Will it last from year to year?
I'm glad that I'm a girl,
I don't simply ejaculate sperm;
Swimming like a desperate worm,
Spreading loving words of germ,
I know my own destiny,
I shan't carry and bear any baby;
I won't be Mommy,
Also there'll be no Daddy,
My status unmarried,
For the rest of my breed;
Not a single greed,
I keep to be freed,
I contribute nothing,
Toward the society;
Losing faith in humanity,
I only trust the God Almighty,
Living under such roof,
I don't know what else to prove;
It's either my death, your breath,
Or my breath, your death,
If only I've another place to go,
Although I fear to being solo;
Should any man appear I'd say no,
You aren't a friend nor a foe,
My body is bleeding,
Can't you see?
My pain a pail,
And the rain sings my pale,
If there's enough water,
I'd slowly sail;
Forgive me, I'm only human,
And I'm not for sale.

At least some parts of the world are still understanding of what I'm feeling and thinking inside, so thank you, thank you so much: 

Taken As I Am

Taken As I Am: Written Originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 14th March 2013, Thursday, 
3:22 p.m.-3:34 p.m., 6th Floor, Wisma Metrowealth, Petaling Jaya South 

Yellow lights,
Turning rights;
Flops of rice,
Timid as mice,
Rolled a dice,
Scored twice;
I tried thrice,
Without flights,
Meet and met nice,
Trembled by sights;
New blessing writes,
Lowering all prides,
Glittering smiles,
Of near and miles;
I have seen files,
A child fating trials.

When the Male Turns Female

When the Male Turns Female: Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, in my own room at home, 27th February 2013, Wednesday, 1:19 p.m.-1:36 p.m., Edited on 2nd March 2013, Saturday, 3:08 p.m.-3:17 p.m., same venue 

When the male turns female,
Everything a big deal;
All ingredients in a meal,
All mouths to seal,
All nails to drill,
Inner feelings failed to feel;
Every wound is real,
Hopefully with the white cream each will heal,
This is no fairy tale,
It has a head and a tail;
Is there anything to bail?
Or all locked up in jail?
Postage of mail to mail,
If only I can follow the trail;
She has been carrying pail by pail,
Following his will,
Who shall we hail?
The air we inhale?
I should thank the whale,
Gave us a chance to sail,
Along the rail,
Set to fail;
Rise and bow to Abigail,
Stop being anxious and pale,
Enjoy life like Chip and Dale,
He has went to Yale;
It's time to change surreal,
Look at the items for sale,
Stand up and walk heel by heel,
Go toward the reel;
Show off skin to peel,
When the female turns male.