Rejected

Written Originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, Thursday, 06/10/2005, 10:37p.m.

Have you ever fell in love with somebody?
Someone whom you thought is the one for you?
For me, he’s not like anybody,
For I see him in my point of view.

We began our love in History class,
He looked straight into my eyes;
The temptation was a blast,
At that time I do not know what future lies.

His romantic words were so heart warming,
Finally, my dream came true;
A guy finally told me face to face,
I got so shy and blushed all the way.

A few days after,
As I placed myself into deep slumber;
He appeared in my mind that night,
To run a thousand miles for him I might.

However, I did not want to rush,
Especially when I had a crush;
Having and doing things separately,
That’s not what I want,
But it is a must.

I can track him all the time,
At a glance I could see him passing by;
He did not see me,
Then I would sigh,
But when he did,
I would look aside.

He made me feel beautiful,
Painting my world so colourful;
But I had to leave,
No reason why,
He met me for the last time,
Bidding goodbye wasn’t a kind;
Hoping that I would touch the sky.

I tried calling him,
Just because I missed him;
Not able to forget him,
Suddenly, he got me worried,
When he started weeping.

I had no choice I got away,
Digital equipment enhanced our conversation;
Many loving messages received,
I wrote a letter for him,
Discovered disappointment when he came by,
Telling me he would only reply;
Whenever he has time.

At that very second I felt rejected,
Even my Mom discouraged our love;
But hey, thank you for making me a new person,
Willingly letting me go and didn’t want me back,
As a guy, you should show your effort,
And be true to all that you said;
Don’t worry as I did not feel heartache,
Who would want to love me anyway?
I just pray that you will find your way,
Searching for your own baby girl;
I’m sorry that I’m not her.

Lost In Your Embrace

By Jennifer Soh Li Wen, Tuesday, 04/10/2005, 2.40p.m.

Today,
I’m a loser;
Tomorrow,
I’m a failure,
The day after tomorrow?
I’m not sure;
But having you around,
Is sure to give me pleasure.

I missed you,
I thought of you;
It doesn’t even matter,
What day is tomorrow,
With you by my side,
Everyday is delight;
Through day and night,
You’ll always be my light.

Now,
I’m so lonely;
I’m so hurt,
No one understands me the way you do,
My source of comfort,
Is only my family;
Where have you been, my love, my darling?
Why left me hanging,
Among those invisible walls.

My friends did not support me,
Neither did my fellow teachers;
Everything just passed,
Like hi-bye instead,
Who truly sees me,
Deep down in my heart?
I’m suffering,
I’m moaning,
I’m grieving,
‘Cause I’m so lost in your embrace;
That I can’t even put a smile on my face,
Fine!
Let me,
Let me go;
I’ll fine my ownself,
And need none of your help!

Salahkah aku?

Ilham daripada Jennifer Soh Li Wen, Selasa, 04/10/2005, 8:55p.m.

Angin malam,
Bertiup sepoi-sepoi bahasa;
Selama ini kita bersalam,
Meluahkan perasaan hati dan rasa.

Mengapakah perlu berakhir begini?
Dua insan yang saling mencintai;
Dibuai memori yang sepi,
Sentiasa terperangkap di sana sini.

Daku ingat,
Kaulah segala-galanya;
Kaulah satu-satunya,
Sekali memandangmu,
Bagaikan melihat bintang yang berkelip-kelip,
Umpama pelangi pelbagai warna;
Kau memiliki semua pancaindera,
Yang kuimpi-impikan,
Jejaka muda yang pandai membisik,
Apa saja kau kata sekarang kutetap kesali.

Wahai budiman yang kusanjungi,
Aku harap kau tidak melupakanku;
Kerana sehingga kini,
Aku masih menanti kehadiranmu,
Aku tahu aku hanya membazirkan masa,
Tapi tak mengapa;
Betapa daif pun keikhlasan niat sanubari ini,
Aku tidak bisa mengaku kalah,
Walau apa cara sekalipun,
Kutidak akan melepaskan tanganmu;
Tidak begitu mudah,
Jadi, jangan kau pasrah.

Apakah kelebihan si dia?
Membutakan matamu untuk melihat diriku;
Sedangkan aku adalah bunga yang giat berkembang,
Hanya untukmu kusanggup mekar,
Mengapa kau kian tidak sedar,
Segala pengorbananku hanya untukmu;
Budimanku yang hanya kucintai,
Suka sangat mengetepikan diri,
Daku hanya mahu mencari cinta sejati,
Salahkah aku?

I’m Here For You

By Jennifer Soh Li Wen, Tuesday, 04/10/2005, 7:55p.m.

Dear me,
Wipe your tears;
It’s no use,
Crying over spilt milk,
Never worry,
‘Cause I’m here for you.

Stand up,
Be firm;
Face it now,
Or you’ll regret later,
Never afraid,
‘Cause I’m here for you.

Do you know how special you are?
You will fly;
And touch the sky,
Don’t care what people say,
‘Cause words kill,
Believe me;
I know what’s going on inside you,
I promise,
I’ll make sure you go afar,
And never turn back;
‘Cause you are not alone.

Hey, you!(Yeah, you!)
What’s with all the grades?
Comparing each other’s abilities,
This is not you,
What’s wrong with you?
You are different,
You know that,
Why wanna be someone else,
When you are already a somebody?

Yo,
People out there!
Watch out,
‘Cause this girl isn’t gonna be the same,
Not anymore,
‘Cause the lady inside me;
Is about to soar,
And I bet you’ll ask for more!

Love is not just a Feeling, it is an Action

Written Originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 06/07/2005, Wednesday, 1:39a.m.

Whisper to me,
Right into my ears;
Look deep into my eyes,
What do you see?
Treasure my voice;
What do you hear?
Be honest and tell me;
What do you fear?

What is the meaning of Love?
If you do not know how to apply It;
Not even knowing the definition,
How are you able to explain It to our next generation?

Beauty is in the Eyes of the Beholder,
Strange things happen when you are in Love;
Be thankful to your Mother,
Pure in Heart as Dove sent from Above.

Romantic words comfort me,
Beautiful roses warmth this Heart of mine;
If you only stood there quietly,
What do you expect me to find?

Little children go out to play,
They learn something new each time they fall;
If you have no words to say,
Why bother to call?

Everyone wants a luxurious Life,
Every girl wishes for a Happy Family;
I see you peeping from side to side,
Just be brave;
Do not be silly.

What is it called to be Guys,
When you yourself does not show it;
Giving me a bunch of Lies,
When will I ever get to sit?

As a summary,
Stepping into conclusion;
Love is not just a Feeling,
Honey, it is an Action.

Strange Feeling

I sat on the chair,
I approached my IC;
I saw my friend,
And chatted with him.
It went normally,
Until one time;
This made me scared and curious,
His words revealed to me.
It might be good,
It might be bad;
But one thing I know,
Guys had never said that to me before.
I knew that in my age,
All these are normal;
It is not wrong,
And I am happy for it.
As I read his words,
He seemed so serious;
I am worried for another friend,
And now I have to concentrate for my studies.

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 7/7/2003.

APAKAH ITU ERTI CINTA JIKA CINTAKU TIDAK DIBALAS OLEHMU

Pada suasana yang sunyi ini,
Terasa pula menulis sajak ini;
Siapakah aku tanpamu disisiku,
Bayangkanlah.

Malang sungguh,
Cintaku sedalam dasar laut itu;
Terhadapmu yang kian tidak sedar,
Telah dirasuki perasaan sedih dan pilu.

Apakah itu erti cinta?
Jika cintaku terhadapmu tidak dibalas olehmu;
Sanggupkah kau meninggalkan diri ini dalam kesepian?
Renungkanlah.

Adakah cinta itu buta?
Kaukah yang hendak aku cari?
Entah mengapa,
Soalan sebegini masih terngiang-ngiang di buah fikiranku.

Aku pasti kau mesti tidak mengetahui,
Kebetulan pula hari ini;
Umurku bertambah setahun,
Pelik, hatiku terasa kosong,
Orang yang kucintai,
Datang dan pergi.

Kau mesti tertanya-tanya,
Sepatutnya perkara ini harus diraikan;
Sedangkan aku rela berkorban buat hari ini,
Khas untuk menulis sajak ini kepadamu.

Sayang,
Aku masih menunggu jawapanmu;
Percayalah,
Kita berdua akan bahagia bersama.

Ditulis oleh: Soh Li Wen, 4 BAKTI, 30/4/2003, Rabu.

S-W-E-E-T S-I-X-T-E-E-N

Successful, brilliant, and hard working,

Willing to sacrifice whatever task may be,

Efficient and accurate in all the things you do,

Eligible and charming,

Thank you for showing me all these.




Say that you love me,

I’ll be waiting whatever time may be,

X-ray my heart,

Till then you will find,

Endless love of mine,

Explore this love that I have inside,

Now you know that my feelings for you are real.

Originally written by Soh Li Wen, 4 BAKTI, 1/5/2003, Thursday.