Rejected

Written Originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, Thursday, 06/10/2005, 10:37p.m.

Have you ever fell in love with somebody?
Someone whom you thought is the one for you?
For me, he’s not like anybody,
For I see him in my point of view.

We began our love in History class,
He looked straight into my eyes;
The temptation was a blast,
At that time I do not know what future lies.

His romantic words were so heart warming,
Finally, my dream came true;
A guy finally told me face to face,
I got so shy and blushed all the way.

A few days after,
As I placed myself into deep slumber;
He appeared in my mind that night,
To run a thousand miles for him I might.

However, I did not want to rush,
Especially when I had a crush;
Having and doing things separately,
That’s not what I want,
But it is a must.

I can track him all the time,
At a glance I could see him passing by;
He did not see me,
Then I would sigh,
But when he did,
I would look aside.

He made me feel beautiful,
Painting my world so colourful;
But I had to leave,
No reason why,
He met me for the last time,
Bidding goodbye wasn’t a kind;
Hoping that I would touch the sky.

I tried calling him,
Just because I missed him;
Not able to forget him,
Suddenly, he got me worried,
When he started weeping.

I had no choice I got away,
Digital equipment enhanced our conversation;
Many loving messages received,
I wrote a letter for him,
Discovered disappointment when he came by,
Telling me he would only reply;
Whenever he has time.

At that very second I felt rejected,
Even my Mom discouraged our love;
But hey, thank you for making me a new person,
Willingly letting me go and didn’t want me back,
As a guy, you should show your effort,
And be true to all that you said;
Don’t worry as I did not feel heartache,
Who would want to love me anyway?
I just pray that you will find your way,
Searching for your own baby girl;
I’m sorry that I’m not her.

Lost In Your Embrace

By Jennifer Soh Li Wen, Tuesday, 04/10/2005, 2.40p.m.

Today,
I’m a loser;
Tomorrow,
I’m a failure,
The day after tomorrow?
I’m not sure;
But having you around,
Is sure to give me pleasure.

I missed you,
I thought of you;
It doesn’t even matter,
What day is tomorrow,
With you by my side,
Everyday is delight;
Through day and night,
You’ll always be my light.

Now,
I’m so lonely;
I’m so hurt,
No one understands me the way you do,
My source of comfort,
Is only my family;
Where have you been, my love, my darling?
Why left me hanging,
Among those invisible walls.

My friends did not support me,
Neither did my fellow teachers;
Everything just passed,
Like hi-bye instead,
Who truly sees me,
Deep down in my heart?
I’m suffering,
I’m moaning,
I’m grieving,
‘Cause I’m so lost in your embrace;
That I can’t even put a smile on my face,
Fine!
Let me,
Let me go;
I’ll fine my ownself,
And need none of your help!

Salahkah aku?

Ilham daripada Jennifer Soh Li Wen, Selasa, 04/10/2005, 8:55p.m.

Angin malam,
Bertiup sepoi-sepoi bahasa;
Selama ini kita bersalam,
Meluahkan perasaan hati dan rasa.

Mengapakah perlu berakhir begini?
Dua insan yang saling mencintai;
Dibuai memori yang sepi,
Sentiasa terperangkap di sana sini.

Daku ingat,
Kaulah segala-galanya;
Kaulah satu-satunya,
Sekali memandangmu,
Bagaikan melihat bintang yang berkelip-kelip,
Umpama pelangi pelbagai warna;
Kau memiliki semua pancaindera,
Yang kuimpi-impikan,
Jejaka muda yang pandai membisik,
Apa saja kau kata sekarang kutetap kesali.

Wahai budiman yang kusanjungi,
Aku harap kau tidak melupakanku;
Kerana sehingga kini,
Aku masih menanti kehadiranmu,
Aku tahu aku hanya membazirkan masa,
Tapi tak mengapa;
Betapa daif pun keikhlasan niat sanubari ini,
Aku tidak bisa mengaku kalah,
Walau apa cara sekalipun,
Kutidak akan melepaskan tanganmu;
Tidak begitu mudah,
Jadi, jangan kau pasrah.

Apakah kelebihan si dia?
Membutakan matamu untuk melihat diriku;
Sedangkan aku adalah bunga yang giat berkembang,
Hanya untukmu kusanggup mekar,
Mengapa kau kian tidak sedar,
Segala pengorbananku hanya untukmu;
Budimanku yang hanya kucintai,
Suka sangat mengetepikan diri,
Daku hanya mahu mencari cinta sejati,
Salahkah aku?