Dear you

Dear you:

Written Originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 17^th September 2011, Saturday, Idea: 8:21 p.m., Started writing from 9:55 p.m.-11:55 p.m.

(Plus Some Extra Time for Some Extra Thoughts)

Dear you,

How are you?

I’m fine, thank you,

I just wanna talk to you.

Will it be okay if I do?

After all, I do care for you;

Just can’t be with you,

From my background’s view.

I’m happy you once loved me,

I’m a Chinese;

Met at the same school we studied,

And you thought I’m the girl of your dreams.

Dear you,

Were your feelings true?

If yes, I can feel it, too,

It’s just that I can’t be with you.

You,

You still care for me, don’t you?

I’m happy that it doesn’t bother you,

It’s because you’ve met a girl named Ayu.

She’s lovely,

That’s what I think;

Sincerely,

She got my eyes blinked.

Do you still think of me?

I know she’s the one for you;

But you can’t deny that you first loved me,

The one you thought is meant for you.

If I said I wannabe with you,

Regardless of my family;

Will you leave Ayu?

Just to be with me?

Is it hard to find back the feeling?

That you once had for me?

I guess nothing I can bring,

To make you come back to me.

I know why you chose her,

She looks like me;

People may think I’m her sister,

And mistaken her for me.

Once I came across a funeral,

I saw your picture and I stumble;

You went to the crowd and saw me,

I can’t believe that we still can meet.

I didn’t know you have a twin brother,

You both look so similar;

But the car accident I had was terrible,

Now I’m no longer here.

I can’t be yours but I can be your brother’s,

We’re now safe and happy in Heaven;

I wish you happiness,

I shall call us even.

Even true love separates us,

By fate and being religious;

Maybe it’s my fault at first,

Maybe this is my curse.

You know that I love you,

I know you loved me, too;

A sacrifice has been made by us two,

Your love for me for Ayu and my love for you for Abu.

We could have had our generation,

But there’s no intention;

That we don’t have to mention,

We were still so young preparing to receive injection.

Dear you,

I want to thank you;

For being you,

And forever the real you.

There when I met you,

I thought of school;

Having saved by you,

I knew you weren’t a fool.

I’m sorry I can’t be true to you because of the truth,

I’ve to drink liquor that’s brewed;

That’s what I can do,

That’s what you can’t do.

Abu is like the second you,

Here, I get to see you;

But I don’t get to feel,

What I felt on Earth.

When I said happy with Abu,

I only think of you;

I’m not cheating Abu,

He knows he should take care of me for you.

I’m safe with him,

Don’t you worry;

God allows me to meet him,

Because in Heaven,

There’s only one God,

And everyone gathers in unity.

Treat Ayu nicely,

Respectfully;

Gently,

Like how you’ll treat me.

You’ve replaced me,

I’m fine with it;

You still care for me,

I can see and feel it.

But she’s no me,

I’m no her;

She loves you not knowing there was me,

Don’t you ever make her suffer.

Don’t be sad for me,

Abu hears your whispering;

He tells me everything,

I really feel sorry.

But I can’t forget the moment you had me in your arms,

It was the first time I saw you deep into my eyes;

Yours tears dripped into my eyes,

They could have saved me but life isn’t a lie,

In the end, I’ve no regrets closing them,

Knowing that you’re right there;

Having your tears flowing in my body,

You and I, both of us are officially joined in unanimity.

It really is you,

At last I met you;

It’s nothing about Abu or Ayu,

It’s about me and you.

You’re the first, who loved me ever so,

You’re the only one I remembered so;

How can this world be so cold?

I did exactly what they told.

White rice has become black porridge,

You’ll not see me again;

But I’ll be waiting for you at the bridge,

Take your time and hopefully till then our love will still sustain.

In your heart,

May I be your invisible wife?

I still wannabe in your heart,

Even though in life, we only met in total twice.

I don’t have any serious relationship,

All who came to me were bullshit;

Except you but we went through hardship,

In the end, what we had was just friendship.

Dear you,

I wish to say dearest you;

I want to love you,

I want to be with you.

I’m not silly,

I’m just being me;

The one that you dreamed,

Still feels lonely.

Dear you,

Sadly, nothing can be true;

I’m sorry for all you went through,

You’re strong enough to pull and make it through.

Dear you,

I seriously want to thank you;

I want to thank God, too,

For having us two met in school.

Dear you,

You’re so good;

There’s no second you,

Not even your twin, Abu.

Dear you,

Be happy with Ayu;

Have little juniors you,

Make your dreams come true.

Dear you,

God’s calling me;

In your heart I’ll be,

You know what?

I’ve wanted to tell you this,

Sweetheart, I love you, too;

May God bless you,

And your family tree without me in it,

By the way, if you think I’m with Abu, I chose not to,

There’s no story between me and him, trust me;

There’s no room for a duplicate cloned you,

For in my heart, there is only one you in it.

Dearest only you,

I really have to stop here;

My regards to Ayu,

Love you dearly, your girl.

P/S: Abu sends his love to you and family. He misses all of you so much. Talk to him.