Alonity

Alonity: Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 1st February 2014, Saturday, laying on my mattress in my room in BSD home, KL, 11:00 a.m.-11:12 a.m.

Alonity,
It's a word from alone and unity;
When both combine in entity,
That's how we form a community,
Last night I was on martini,
Ventured even to Santorini;
Thought I have met the man,
He seemed interested in me,
I just could imagine,
Him inside me;
Walking the whole journey,
Until we become old,
Having kids of own,
From houses bought to sold;
I thought he could find me,
I thought he could ask me,
Bring me out of here,
I follow you and your beer;
Kissing you so near,
Pink me up and I'll cheer,
No, you won't call me dear,
Time just ticking and switching gear;
You won't say and I won't hear,
You'll fly soon and I'm left here still.

I Dreamt a Dream

I Dreamt a Dream

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 13th January 2014, Monday, 8:27 a.m.-8:55 a.m., laying on my mattress in my rented room, K.L. and done checking at 8:59 a.m.

I awoke with tears in my dream,

Let me towards it seam;

I know it has meaning,

I shall record only the last seen,

Let me recall scene by scene,

It is not easy;

Most I forgot already,

But hey, there was Dr. Danny,

Talking to me like I was guilty,

Of doing the kissing and everything;

He even passed me a cracker thing,

With a message on it,

This nightmare started,

After I entered;

The Scholar Base as a mentor,

I was teaching singing,

We even did the "London Bridge",

Obviously God is telling me;

Of not going back to history,

I told Dr. Danny that finding jobs,

It was uneasy,

Then, we ended up in his office;

After some two staffs greetings,

He said that they were with him,

I shouldn't be worried,

He said there was an evidence;

If I'm not mistaken, a picture,

It was a 1980 taken,

Oh, please, I wasn't even present,

I was born in 1987;

He forwarded one of his watches,

It was so clear and mechanical,

How I cried that I couldn't accept,

Rejecting even the Hello Kitty cat;

But I still remember the belt,

So unique, that was what I felt,

I shall remember this brilliant idea,

It could be something for my year;

Maybe there are people wanna hear,

How could I end up accused?

Ah, must be my past bf issue,

He left me with a recent clue;

His gf now tasted his bird and glue,

No, this can't be making me blue,

Maybe just thinking about it,

Why am I thinking in the first place?

I don't know anything about her,

But she must be real open minded,

Sex before marriage,

I admit I was seduced by many men;

One even fantasized to the max,

I hope I didn't agree to any man,

I'm still a virgin, that's what I am,

I can't wait for a new man;

A Westerner, that's what I meant,

I want a mixed marriage,

It will never be the same,

I need to forget any other image;

The unhappy ones, please erase,

Happiness will come without chase.

Another History

Another History

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 8th January 2014, Wednesday, 5:40 p.m.-5:57 p.m., in the living room of rented house, letting go Ali Vafaei Zadeh as my former lover (first serious relationship for 5 months and recently/lately he called me as his best friend and I accept him as my best friend -both of us no longer keep in touch with Dawood Afkhami-, I apologize, I thank you, I wonder why, I wonder why)

I thank God for this evening,

He's ever lovely and considerate;

He shows me the grand opening,

He knows that I can really take,

Ever since early in the morning,

A wish "goodnight" by me made;

He replied and more words on plate,

Talked about sex and then, relate,

Finally, I realized he found a mate,

Another history, I closed the gate;

No more speaking on love and fate,

No more such missing him rate,

I shall allow myself to resuscitate,

More room to love than to hate;

Go on meeting new faces and date,

I'm ready and it's never too late,

A new story shall I start to create,

Lord, please heal me off heartbreak;

In life, just accelerate, don't brake,

I need to learn a cake recipe to bake.

Sekiranya Kau Bulan, Ku Siapa?

Sekiranya Kau Bulan, Ku Siapa?

Ilham asli oleh Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 8 Januari 2014, Rabu, 11:13 pagi-11:27 pagi, Di dalam bilik sewa, Kuala Lumpur, Terkenangkan cinta dulu yang masih membara sehingga kini - seandainya dia tahu, AVZ, SLW mencintai dan merindui mu 

Barangkali ku berfikir,

Mungkin dari zahir;

Mungkin dari batin,

Andai kata ku memihak ranting,

Apakah akar mula menengking?

Betapa hati ku sakit;

Hari demi hari pulih jua sikit,

Ku berjalan ada juga berakit,

Cuma ada kala hilang seringgit,

Usah gentar kehidupan menggigit;

Kalau mu jatuh kembalilah bangkit,

Tak perlu nak selalu cantik-cantik,

Hati lihat luar hanyalah sedikit,

Tidak juga hari-hari ku bertapa;

Tidak juga selalu minum air kelapa,

Namun hati ku mencari serupa,

Sekiranya kau bulan, ku siapa? 

Ku harap cinta bukan sebelah mata;

Jangan disangka ku hawa rata,

Ku hanya bijak berkata-kata,

Ku perlukan mu beraksi bercerita.

If Only

If Only 

Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 8th January 2014, Wednesday, 2:15 a.m.-2:25 a.m., In my rented room missing honey azizam Ali Vafaei Zadeh so much in my heart and mind - if only he knows 

My life of spots,

I miss you lots;

Should I continue the polka dots,

Hold on until each rots,

Or should I just change the wind,

Carry my grin;

I don't want to win,

May it be a bliss twin,

When I look on my right,

I see you by my side;

Why can't we make it tonight?

Until morning bright,

Running my fingers,

Till your face get wrinkles;

Tickle you to giggles,

We overcome all fakers,

Oh, baby, why can't we?

Don't you love and miss me? 

You're the only that I need,

Across time-across greed,

I want you by my side,

Take me for a ride;

I won't be shy,

I won't cry.

I'm Your Patient

I'm Your Patient
Written originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 31st December 2013, Tuesday, 7:28 a.m.-7:40 a.m., in my rented room, K.L., emotional and cramp...

I'm your patient,
So very ancient;
I'm your resuscitation,
I'm your patience,
I'm your clarification,
I don't know distance;
I give you my life,
I give you my all,
And all I got is a false call,
No, you treat me right;
Till I'm out of sight,
How I wished to imply,
That you're not mine,
Why do things have to be so cold?
Why can't old be gold?
Why do I tear, when you're not here?
Why do I hope for you to be near?
Is this some kind of craze?
Like I'm stuck in a maze?
Lost in your embrace?
All I hear is praise?
But I don't deserve that raise?
Where is this place?
What do I chase?
I see life amazed,
Right timing in God's grace;
Let me be the storyteller,
Let me be the retailer,
All memories stored in me,
I silently set free;
Oh, airplane bring me,
Where am I meant to be?
Dealing melancholy,
On God's land holy;
I'm your patient,
Yet you don't know I've injured.

Your Heart of Rhyme

Your Heart of Rhyme
Written Originally by Jennifer Soh Li Wen, 21st December 2013, Saturday, 12:32 a.m.-2:17 a.m., In Rented Room, A Special Dedication to the One Girl Simon Deeply Loves

"Give me your hand,
You don't have to stare;
This I want you to wear,
A knot of our love band."

There are many words said,
How much that we create;
I strongly believe in fate,
True feeling won't easily fade.

It was 26th August 2010,
Started as a mere friend;
Soon after it became grand,
I chose you to comprehend.

I apologize for the long distance,
Didn't it make our hearts go fonder?
Love doesn't only mean presence,
It carries sunshine, rain, and thunder.

Destinations of Malaysia to India,
My soul remained here;
It was true that I drank beer,
But I never forgot my familia.

A photo speaks a thousand words,
How many have we taken towards?
Countless like the spots on leopards,
It shows love grows though it hurts.

I admit I spent more time on me,
I admit I didn't provide security;
I admit I enjoyed the music party,
I admit I smoked yet I didn't like it.

Bibi, do you remember our outings?
First, it was you that made all happened;
I so treasure all of our precious datings,
I'm certain that to you I propose as a husband.

Let bygones be bygones,
A rose is beautiful but it has thorns;
I want to be with you every dawns;
I promise you; I carry no big horns.

Our "Q & S Forever,"
You're my Passionflower;
Also my red and purple,
I'm your Clover and maple.

Love has its own language,
Where there's a wound;
There's a bandage,
Oh, Bibi, I wanna meet you soon.

The things you've done for me,
Carving my name into your body;
Finding your own sweet berries,
I hope to write more sweet stories.

There is no anyone other,
You have my pride and time;
May our love journey go farther,
I dance in your heart of rhyme.